lil backstory im a single mother and its been a tough life for me, i am a severe alcoholic but im doing my VERY best to clean up for my daughters sake shes the lite of my life but its a constant struggle…
anyway fast forward to now ive been sober for 19 days but last night i really really got upset and one thing led to another i got almost black out drunk by midnight… my daughter was fast asleep so i figured she was safe or so i thought… but before i went 2 bed that night i really had “to go” but i was so messed up i didnt realize i went into my daughters bedroom (its right next to the bathroom, i was really f**d up please try to understand how hard it can be) and i just totally lost control and went to the bathroom (#1 and #2… a lot of both… ;) all over her
god knows how but she slept through it … when i realized what i did i was so ashasmed i almost threw up and i didnt know how to tell her i mean she cant think her mother did this for the rest of her LIFE!!! so i just left it there and the next morning she woke up SCREAMING BLODY MURDER so i ran in and i dont know i couldnt tell her it was me so i just said “uh oh honey u had an accident its okay” shes 9 years old so shes too old for bed wetting but i had no choice but to make her think she did it
she is depressed all day today because she thinks she is a gross monster but what choice do i have if i ttell her it was me wont it be worse
p[lease help i dont know what 2 do ;( :( ;(
