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How do I STOP this akwardness between us?

  • Posted on October 11, 2010 at 11:24 am

WARNING:IT’S LONG,BUT A HORRIBLE SITUATION. :(
This is a question regarding someone in my family,Someone I love with all my heart..He’s the best uncle in the world! Lol..To keep things on the down low,Let’s just call him..Emmett. Lol,YES I did get that from twilight..But,I am not going to actually put my uncle’s real name here..And Emmett was literally ALL I could come up with for 60 seconds..Anyways,Onto the question:
My uncle has EVERYTHING he wants..He says that he has a pretty unfair life,But I really don’t see it..He has money,clothes,friends,the cars {which he literally changes his car every month..} He has a beautiful daughter,he graduated successfully,etc. He’s a lot older than me..And I’ve known him for 6 years..I guess because I’m so nervous/shy/stupid around him is because he has a LOT of money..Ok,He may not be ‘rich’..But,His parents ARE! ‘Emmett’ is a cool uncle..But,He is an alcoholic who NEEDS help..He drinks every day of his life,And likes to go out and ‘party’ a lot more than he does being responsible..Him and his ‘baby mama’ have a LOT of drama..Which,I guess is one thing he is saying he’s stressed about..But,He has everything I want..I guess. He looks at women for ‘sex’,And sex only..He never takes anything serious,Really. I’m a girl and I am really dissapointed by his choices..But,I know it’s his life..And his choices. But,That’s not why I am asking this,Back to THE main problem:I am always worried I’ll look stupid in front of him. Like,For example:I am REALLY in ‘love’ with Basketball and Baseball..But,’Emmett’ was born with a basketball in his hand..LOL. I’m speaking metaphorically here. [Can you imagine how that would feel for a mother btw? :D] Sorry,I have ADD..Woops! Anyways:I was going to ask him if he would go out with me to the basketball court and play with me,And teach me how to be a ‘pro’..And also help ne with baseball..But,I am too nervous to ask him..He seems ‘too perfect’. Emmett used to be a jackass to me,But I guess that’s because he didn’t know how to react to me..Since,I was my mom’s only child at the time..But,A LOT has changed since then..’Emmett’ [like any other guy] obviously DOESN’T show ANY emotion whatsoever..Except for when his best friend died. But,He either only comes over to EAT,Sleep,ask for beer,or bring a girl over at 1 am+ and have sex with a girl in MY bed. I LUCKILY got a new bed,But my uncle had sex with a 15 year old pregnant girl..I think he knew how old she is. He was intoxicated,Like always..But,He never comes over to talk to ANY of us..I can’t be myself when I’m around him. He’s EXTREMELY skinny,very well built,athletic,etc. And I’m NOT..I want to be though! And,I ALWAYS have to suck in my stomache when I’m around him..Because it always feels as if he’s better than me..And,It just shouldn’t be like this. I am not going to a counselor,therapist,etc. I’M NOT PSYCHO! But,My uncle and I’s relationship just isn’t how I want it to be..He’s changed INCREDIBLY..He’s not the same uncle anymore..’Emmett’ has a bad drinking problem..2-3 nights ago he came over here HORRIBLY intoxicated,And a girl took his truck,And another girl came over here talking to him on the porch..’Emmett’ threw up on himself,AND DIDN’T EVEN KNOW IT,He fell asleep on the porch..He landed in his own puke. He couldn’t even walk or talk straight..He’s just really not the same..I just need help with this all:How can I END the awkwardness between me and my uncle?
Thanks
Lol..I made the medaphor joking about how my uncle was ‘born with a basketball in his hands’..I may not have wrote it correctly but:My uncle is the BEST at sports,He loves basketball..As do I,And I wanted to ask him if he would help me out with it..He’s a pro at it,And I always loved watching him play..But now . . He’s a completely different person. :(
I want to be like him because he has all those I want,Or wanted anyways..Not because be’s an alcoholic. IN fact,He was the FIRST person to get me to drink a beer..And I was stupid enough to fall for it,And now I regret it! Nothing bad happened,But it was just WRONG! I’m not saying he’s a role model NOW..But,He seemed like it to me..

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