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I have been diagnosed as bi-polar, depressed, co-dependent. I have no idea what is wrong with me.?

  • Posted on September 10, 2010 at 4:17 am

But whatever it is, anti-depressants never help. I’ve tried several. Abilify made me want to crawl out of my skin and seroquel knocked me out. As a child I was shy and withdrawn, I hated school and was never interested in learning. I have had to quit several jobs throughout my life because I can’t handle losing a relationship and would be bedbound depressed. I have been married four times. one marriage was with my own sister’s ex-husband. I can’t function alone. When things are going good, I am the most responsible person but when I’m alone I get very fearful. I have been a binge drinker since I was fifteen. I am forty-one now. I had a car wreck six years ago and I have not been able to rebound from the depression. I literally spend my life in bed or in a recliner. I don’t even have enough energy to go to the grocery store. I started smoking pot after the wreck and I mean I smoke all day and night. Sometimes I go through stages of insomnia. I have had some boughts of irritability, but not often. I mainly have absolutely no energy. I’ve stopped smoking pot befor to see if that was what was causing it, but I felt just as depressed and tired all th time. No motivation to do anything. I was taking lortabs for back pain and they gave me some energy, but the doc tested me one day and discovered marijuana in my urine, so now I can’t even get lortabs. I am at my wits end. I have the potential to be a registered nurse–all A’s, but I haven’t been able to return to school due to the lack of energy and motivation. I had a nervous break-down after my carwreck. I managed to pull myself together without medical help when it happened, but I just can’t seem to rebound. My marriage is unahappy, I think we both feel stuck. I hardly ever see my daughter whio is now on drugs herself. When I was able and younger, I’d go out and binge drink sometimes when I was bored. But most of the time, as long as in a committed relationship, I didn’t drink. I fear if my husband and I were to ever divorce, I’d be a raging alcoholic or drug addict. I lived thirty-five years without ever experimenting with drugs, but now I’m so desperate to feel good, I don’t trust myself. I don’t have any friends. outside of work, I didn’t ever socialize, although I was very friendly and outgoing at work. I was a good worker, but I called in sick a lot. I don’t think I can be responsible on my own. Does anybody out there have any idea what my problem might be, is so please help, i am willing to try anything.

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