You are currently browsing all posts tagged with 'diagnosed'

I have been diagnosed as bi-polar, depressed, co-dependent. I have no idea what is wrong with me.?

  • Posted on September 10, 2010 at 4:17 am

But whatever it is, anti-depressants never help. I’ve tried several. Abilify made me want to crawl out of my skin and seroquel knocked me out. As a child I was shy and withdrawn, I hated school and was never interested in learning. I have had to quit several jobs throughout my life because I can’t handle losing a relationship and would be bedbound depressed. I have been married four times. one marriage was with my own sister’s ex-husband. I can’t function alone. When things are going good, I am the most responsible person but when I’m alone I get very fearful. I have been a binge drinker since I was fifteen. I am forty-one now. I had a car wreck six years ago and I have not been able to rebound from the depression. I literally spend my life in bed or in a recliner. I don’t even have enough energy to go to the grocery store. I started smoking pot after the wreck and I mean I smoke all day and night. Sometimes I go through stages of insomnia. I have had some boughts of irritability, but not often. I mainly have absolutely no energy. I’ve stopped smoking pot befor to see if that was what was causing it, but I felt just as depressed and tired all th time. No motivation to do anything. I was taking lortabs for back pain and they gave me some energy, but the doc tested me one day and discovered marijuana in my urine, so now I can’t even get lortabs. I am at my wits end. I have the potential to be a registered nurse–all A’s, but I haven’t been able to return to school due to the lack of energy and motivation. I had a nervous break-down after my carwreck. I managed to pull myself together without medical help when it happened, but I just can’t seem to rebound. My marriage is unahappy, I think we both feel stuck. I hardly ever see my daughter whio is now on drugs herself. When I was able and younger, I’d go out and binge drink sometimes when I was bored. But most of the time, as long as in a committed relationship, I didn’t drink. I fear if my husband and I were to ever divorce, I’d be a raging alcoholic or drug addict. I lived thirty-five years without ever experimenting with drugs, but now I’m so desperate to feel good, I don’t trust myself. I don’t have any friends. outside of work, I didn’t ever socialize, although I was very friendly and outgoing at work. I was a good worker, but I called in sick a lot. I don’t think I can be responsible on my own. Does anybody out there have any idea what my problem might be, is so please help, i am willing to try anything.

  • Share/Bookmark

If your son or daughter was diagnosed with breast cancer and you are retired would you stay or go?

  • Posted on July 31, 2010 at 1:21 am

away from the area she lives in to another part of the country? Usually my in-laws leave for Arizona in Septermber but this year they stayed in the area because my wife’s diagosis of breast cancer. They left in November.

Her aunt and uncle left too for Texas, and only her brother remained in the area but he works full time. It was easier for me when my in-laws were around because my wife would talk with her mom and dad. They would come by and keep her company and they would go out to breakfast together.

I felt ok to go to work and then they would leave when I got off work or stick around and we would talk together. I know they are retired and earned their right to travel. But I felt deserted when they left, I felt a huge burden upon my shoulders. Nobody would be there for my wife to take her to the hospital if she needed to go. She never did but the thought of her being alone scared me.

They left after my wife had her mastectomy and her mom helped empty her drain. When the left she started 12 weeks of Taxol and I did not know how those treatments would go for her, I was scared and feared the worse.

My wife now is on her last week of radiaiton. It is hell for her. She is taking two Percocet for pain (when she had her mastectomy she only took one and she hates to take pain pills). Yesterday she told me she wishes her mom was here. I told her they will be here in about a month. They don’t call to see how she is doing. I feel like they don’t care. If it were my child I would not leave the area until the doctors said she was through it. Am I wrong to feel like she has been abandoned?

It hurt me a lot to hear her say she wishes her mom was here because she is not and there is nothing I could do to make her be here. I have felt like calling them and asking them to hurry home their daughter needs them, but I am afraid to.

What would you do?

  • Share/Bookmark