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My whole life has been torn apart! Advice, MATURE ANSWERS!?

  • Posted on January 15, 2011 at 5:21 pm

Im 26 and was engaged to my amazing fiance who i had been with since i was 13yrs old. I gave birth to our daughter when i was 16 and she was the apple of his eye. My fiance was a musician in a band and he would write me songs or write music for our daughter. I love him so much, every time i seen him i fell more in love with him more. Last year my world came crashing down when he died of a heroin overdose, I tried to make him stop many times but he always told me he could handle it and he never used around our daughter, It was only a few months before he died that he started using heroin and i hated him for doing it. I never grieved for him and everyone says part of me died with him, I feel like i have lost my will to live. I started to write poetry about him and it gives me an outlet, Our daughter always mentions her daddy and listens to his music. I lay awake at night staring into space or break down crying and i feel like there is a huge hole in my heart. When he passed i took his last name and now use it. I find it hard to see his parents but my daughter is still close to them. I feel like a ghost of a person i was when i was with him.I don’t even want to talk to my family or friends about what happened i feel like im in denial. The guy that always had a crush on me is really nice to me and lets me get things off my chest. He was the love of my life and i don’t know how to life without him.

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Do you think you can ever gain respect for a person you’ve disrespected your entire life?

  • Posted on January 10, 2011 at 5:23 am

Copious amounts of times I’ve expressed my criticism to my father on his displays of favoritism towards my older sister.

He was an alcoholic for years and while he played the victim to gain everyone’s sympathy, I pitied him and told him how I’m ashamed to be considered his daughter.

One morning, when I was at my boyfriend’s apartment, my sister called. She said my father got into a bad car wreck, as a result of driving while intoxicated.

I suspected she was gently trying to tell me that he was “in a terrible accident” and died. My heart and my stomach didn’t sink. Of all the feelings I felt, none of them consisted of sadness, worry, or concern. I didn’t care.

I remember when I was younger, I would refer to him by his first name because I had so much disrespect for him.

He is an example of everything I hate in a person.

He is truly worthless.

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Do you think you can ever gain respect for a person you’ve disrespected your entire life?

  • Posted on January 9, 2011 at 7:23 am

Copious amounts of times I’ve expressed my criticism to my father on his displays of favoritism towards my older sister.

He was an alcoholic for years and while he played the victim to gain everyone’s sympathy, I pitied him and told him how I’m ashamed to be considered his daughter.

One morning, when I was at my boyfriend’s apartment, my sister called. She said my father got into a bad car wreck, as a result of driving while intoxicated.

I suspected she was gently trying to tell me that he was “in a terrible accident” and died. My heart and my stomach didn’t sink. Of all the feelings I felt, none of them consisted of sadness, worry, or concern. I didn’t care.

I remember when I was younger, I would refer to him by his first name because I had so much disrespect for him.

He is an example of everything I hate in a person.

He is truly worthless.

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Do you think you can ever gain respect for a person you’ve disrespected your entire life?

  • Posted on January 8, 2011 at 9:24 am

Copious amounts of times I’ve expressed my criticism to my father on his displays of favoritism towards my older sister.

He was an alcoholic for years and while he played the victim to gain everyone’s sympathy, I pitied him and told him how I’m ashamed to be considered his daughter.

One morning, when I was at my boyfriend’s apartment, my sister called. She said my father got into a bad car wreck, as a result of driving while intoxicated.

I suspected she was gently trying to tell me that he was “in a terrible accident” and died. My heart and my stomach didn’t sink. Of all the feelings I felt, none of them consisted of sadness, worry, or concern. I didn’t care.

I remember when I was younger, I would refer to him by his first name because I had so much disrespect for him.

He is an example of everything I hate in a person.

He is truly worthless.

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Do you think you can ever gain respect for a person you’ve disrespected your entire life?

  • Posted on January 5, 2011 at 3:23 pm

Copious amounts of times I’ve expressed my criticism to my father on his displays of favoritism towards my older sister.

He was an alcoholic for years and while he played the victim to gain everyone’s sympathy, I pitied him and told him how I’m ashamed to be considered his daughter.

One morning, when I was at my boyfriend’s apartment, my sister called. She said my father got into a bad car wreck, as a result of driving while intoxicated.

I suspected she was gently trying to tell me that he was “in a terrible accident” and died. My heart and my stomach didn’t sink. Of all the feelings I felt, none of them consisted of sadness, worry, or concern. I didn’t care.

I remember when I was younger, I would refer to him by his first name because I had so much disrespect for him.

He is an example of everything I hate in a person.

He is truly worthless.

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How do you deal with life?

  • Posted on January 4, 2011 at 5:24 pm

Hey bartender, make me another drink
Trying to drown my sorrows, make them sink
Braking my parole so I can have a good time
Hope I don’t get caught, I’ll serve another dime
Got home, smelling like I drunk too much
Passed out, after I threw up my lunch
Beer cans surround me, so dehydrated
Thanks to my dad, I’m the man he created
He drank so much that he left my mother
With two children, his daughter with her brother
Talking to the bartender again, maybe he’ll listen
Drinking so I fill whatever in my life is miss’n
Maybe what I need is love, I’ll probably never learn
Pour gasoline on it while I watch it all burn
Waiting for the cops to come and pick me up
Hate this life I’m living, I’ve had enough

Watched my life go up in flames
Now I’m doing drinking games
Can’t believe it, I’m an alcoholic
I think my level is one point six

Life had been nothing but udder torture
Once a genius, now I’m looking at a failure
Too many heartbreaks got me sitting at a bar
Knowing what I’m doing won’t get me far
Just sick and tired of what is going on
Wake up every other morning on the lawn
Drinking too much gonna give me liver cancer
Knowing what I’m doing will never be the answer
Need to move and get rid of this hangover
Maybe need to quit drinking and get sober
Probably not since life offers no other relief
I need to get rid of this life, take off the heat
So while intoxicated I got in the car, stumbling
Started the ignition while I start drunk singing
Hitting over 100 MPH on the new highway
Going to the next bar, this time I’ll stay

Watched my life go up in flames
Now I’m doing drinking games
Can’t believe it, I’m an alcoholic
I think my level is one point six

The Midwest Arsonist

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What do you do to cope with life?

  • Posted on December 31, 2010 at 3:22 am

Hey bartender, make me another drink
Trying to drown my sorrows, make ‘em sink
Braking my parole so I can have a good time
Hope I don’t get caught, I’ll serve another dime
Got home at five, smelling like I drunk too much
Passed out on the porch, after I threw up my lunch
Beer cans surround me, feeling dehydrated
Thanks to my dad, I’m the man he created
He drank so much that he left my mother
With two children, his daughter with her brother
Talking to the bartender again, maybe he’ll listen
Drinking so I fill whatever in my life is miss’n
Maybe what I need is love, I’ll probably never learn
Pour gasoline on it while I watch it all burn
Waiting for the cops to come and pick me up
Hate this life I’m living, I’ve just had enough

Watched my life go up in flames
Now I’m doing drinking games
Can’t believe it, I’m an alcoholic
I think my level is one point six

Life had been nothing but udder torture
Once a genius, now I’m looking at a failure
Too many heartbreaks got me sitting at a bar
Knowing what I’m doing won’t get me far
Just sick and tired of what is going on
Wake up every other morning on the lawn
Drinking too much gonna give me liver cancer
Knowing what I’m doing will never be the answer
Need to move and get rid of this hangover
Maybe need to quit drinking and get sober
Probably not since life offers no other relief
I need to get rid of this life, take off the heat
So while intoxicated I got in the car, stumbling
Started the ignition my stomach still rumbling
Hitting over 100 running red light on the highway
Going to the next bar, next time I’ll try to stay

Watched my life go up in flames
Now I’m doing drinking games
Can’t believe it, I’m an alcoholic
I think my level is one point six

The Midwest Arsonist

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My Grand Daughter is 28 and still doesn’t have her life?

  • Posted on November 28, 2010 at 2:17 am

together. She is going back to alcoholic husband who is not the father of her child. Her mother has helped her over and over with money, car insurance. cell phone etc. mostly because of her adorable grandson. When is enough enough? Now I think. What’s your thoughts? She has a great job.

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We need life insurance on a “son n law”!?

  • Posted on November 20, 2010 at 7:23 pm

I know this sounds greedy, mean and inappropriate! So serious answers only.
Our youngest daughter is married to the “poster child for LOOSERS”!
He’s “an extreme drunk”, never sober, takes/ devours pain meds like they are M+M’s! He WON”T WORK, never has, never will!
They moved to the poorest part of KY, so he’d feel at home! She will not leave him, and gets angry at anyone who tries to intervien, she says “it’s my life and leave us alone”. She doesn’t drink/drug, she;s just in love! With what I’ll never understand! He’s always sick/hurt,excuse for not working!
he’s been in 3 life threatening events in 2 years, and survived (thank GOD), I want no harm to him! they have 2 daughters, and they all live in extreme poverty!! He’s 35 and will not change! HOPELESS
We (wife + I) have decided to take a life insurance policy on him, so WHEN (not if, but WHEN), he dies from his drinking/drugging+driving
Daughter +girls will at least have $$ to start a new life!
When this happens, they will return home! And we don’t have the $$ to help her! I’m not looking for $$ for us/me, just their future!
Is this good planning on my part, or bad business!
I will be handling the funds, (as she isn’t $$ alert).
thanx for input!
She;ll never leave!
Intervention won’t work, he’s never sober/straight!
Again, I wish him NO HARM

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My close friend blew me off for 8 months after I had my baby, now expects to just pop back into my life?

  • Posted on November 14, 2010 at 1:23 pm

If it had been someone I wasn’t close to or didn’t talk to very often I wouldn’t have cared so much, but this was one of my very best friends. We talked all the time, helped each other thru bad times, had playdates with our kids and shared babysitting, and have been friends for 13 years. When I had my daughter in January, I called her from the hospital to tell her the baby was here. She texted me back and said she was sick and didn’t want to come to the hospital and would call me later…..didn’t hear from her for 7 months. I know that I could have called her, but I had just had a baby, by c-section, was moving, and was hurt that she never called. I felt like I didn’t have to call and beg her to come and meet my new baby. So a couple weeks ago, she sent a request to add me as a friend on facebook..but no message or anything, so I waited to add her because I wanted to think about it first. We have a lot of mutual friends and I have heard over the months that she has become a nasty person and that she’s been taking ecstasy and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be friends with her anymore. I also felt that I was owed some kind of apology or honest explanation. I added her anyway because I decided that after 13 years of friendship, I should see what she had to say. Expecting an apology, this is what I got…” hey girl, sorry, I lost your number, hope you don’t hate me. I had something for your baby girl.” She lost my number?!?!?! I’m sure it didn’t just fall out of her phone, and since we have about 15 friends in common, I’m sure she could have gotten my number from someone else in the past 7 months. I really felt insulted, like she thinks I’m that stupid that I would accept that BS excuse! I didn’t even respond..didn’t know what to say to that. What would you do? What should I say to her, if anything? Should I even try to rekindle the friendship? Thanks:)

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