First & foremost I do want to say I’m not joking or playing & any serious advice I would greatly appricate it & I greatly apologize for the length but this is a serious problem.
I am a sex addict; I have struggled with my addiction throughout my life. .. I have had to deal with STDs & almost losing my loving wife & daughter. Now I feel like dying; like karma is out to distroy me. A large part of my addiction is unfortunately an attraction to overtly sexually provocative & charged women. “Slutty girls ” I do get extremely upset at them but turned -on at the same time if that makes any sense.
It all started maybe a 4 months ago & is currently out of control months ago my @ that time 12 year old girl was rushing home from school & spending a lot of time in her room which I thought nothing of at the time. Now I do not allow my daughter to talk to or associate w/ boys in any way (which of course has caused SEVERAL fights b/w my wife & I )
A few months ago had returned from a month long buisness trip to Ohio (I currently live in Florida)
When I returned my daughter wanted to sit in my lap a lot! I figured this to be odd since she stopped that type of behavior when she was about 8. I later could have swoen she grind herself into my crotch but I figured once again maybe I’m losing it.
Two days later my wife was very antsy & worried but did not say why now I believe I know. That afternoon I took a shower & my daughter walked into the bathroom naked. I politely told her to leaving thinking she thought the bathroom was empty. I heard the door close but when I got out of the shower She was still standing there . She was shocked I assume because she had a weird look on her face.
I just ignored her & walked out lying to myself telling me it was innocent.
That night I heard loud cursing coming from her room. I stormed in to fuss her out & she was touching herself; I was in shock almost couldn’t move. She looked up & saw me & jumped back however not before she ejaculated; I @ first thought it was urine (Idk y her mother squirts as well)
I immediately closed the door in utter embarrassment. I got Really mad I was cursing & screaming; I cannot lie I wanted to physically hurt my own daughter. I felt like she was nothing more than a common slut . I guess what bothered me most is my wife may talk dirty Or squirt or w/e & I will get antsy but I can handle it & when I cannot my wife will play on my addiction until u can’t move from exhaustion let alone get mad. I cannot imagine my daughter wanting well what her mom does u understand.
Anyway immediately after this I packed my bags & left the house. I told my wife that I couldn’t handle a slut for a daughter & said I want a divorce & to give up my rights as her parent . (Which I now regret saying more than life itself ) . My daughter ran out & hugged me saying she was sorry & I pushed her away & left I feel horrible.
My wife called me a few hours ago & asked me to come home but she told me that my daughter maybe suffering from a sexual addiction like I did. I asked her why she thought that & she told me my daughter is experiencing some of the same signs I did As a kid I.e. masturbating in public places or masturbating till the genetials are rubbed raw. & she wants me to come home & talk to my daughter (she used the bull$hit excuse only I know what she’s going through etcetera ) but I’m not a girl so how could I possibly know its gotta b a lot easier for girls to control urges than guys rt? & if girls want sex they can have sex because well guys r horny 90% of the time. What makes it worse is that my wife f*ckin TOLD my daughter I’m an addict; Apparently my daughter WANTS to talk to me about it like seriously; but if I can’t! ! I mean what if she ask about my experiences battling this demon I mean I’ve done very careless & reckless stuff (sex in abandoned buildings, unprotected sex, paid for sex ) I’m ashamed of it & am seeking help but still.
Maybe I’m overreacting Idk but please anyone help me what do I do. I’m willing to do anything for my daughter but I can’t stand the fact that she may actually want. .. u know sex let alone her being way to young & just please help what do I do. Do I talk to her. Do i even go back to the house knowing i cannot handle what i saw please help
