I feel like returning to my ex-husband. He was both verbally and physically abusive with me. We have a daughter who lives wtih him in another state.
I don’t know how to break my addiction to him. When I think of restarting my life with someone else, I feel guilty about hurting him. I constantly feel that since Ieft I should put the family back together.
He is now sick with different things (high cholesterol, etc) and I feel that its because I have not been there to take care of him.
Yet, now when I talk to him he says that I am “messed up” and not “marriageable material.” I have not grown or developed over the years according to him and am not loyal to the family or house. I have to learn to think according to “we” and not just about “me.” I don’t know right from wrong and am not smart enough to understand the “right” things to do for a family. I am all about money and me and have emotional problems according to him.
I miss being part of a family though.