I am struggling with chemical addictions since I was 12 and i am 27 now. i have been in and out of rehab and currently am going through a divorce with a woman i loved with all my heart and we were together 8 years and have a 3 year old daughter together with. She left me last year because my addiction was out of control. i have since tried to clean up my act, and i just can’t. i have a heroin addiction right now.
Really what is going on right now is i feel so alone, like all my relationships are distant. nobody is close to me. i can’t seem to generate a positive thought. i cant sleep. i have no appetite. things seem really far away like im not in my body. i am staring at knives in the kitchen and having thoughts of hurting myself. i feel as though im losing my grip on reality and really need some help
