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Does the pain of losing my husband and soulmate of 28 years ever get easier?

  • Posted on July 28, 2010 at 5:20 pm

18 days ago my husband(48years)passed away from heart failure but he also had severe back pain and was on painkillers for 6 years now and it got so severe that he would take a pill and forget then take another one..Yes,i did watch over him..but he got addicted and he would keep secrets from me and lie to me ..as i have been finding out since his death..there was a whole other person in him and then the guy i knew and loved..i miss him soo much and will love him always and forever..at the first stages of our relationship,he was a alcoholic and abusive to me but when i was pregnant with our second daughter he quit drinking and that was 20 years ago.He had a few slip ups but then he hurt his back at work and was never the same once the doctor perscribed him at first it was percocet,then percodan.oxycotin and fenantyl patches..this was his problem he could easily get them off the doctor or buy them on the streets.I know he loved us i just need to know if the pain in my heart will get better and how do i go about believing ..i am only 49 years old and i can’t think of a life without him as we were together the last six years ..we were joined at the hip some people would say.??What to do with me now?

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