my mom has gone through a huge obstacle ; running over a person and essentially killing her. the trial is slow, she is most likely to not be persecuted any charges, but she’s paranoid and needs support. shes a troubled soul, shes always had symptoms of bipolar disorder, and now the symptoms have become true and evident. but im not a doctor, and can’t diagnose her nor can i convince her to see a psychiatrist, ever; this has been suggested, but its NOT AN OPTION.
she’s going through a tough time. i try to communicate, but she’s still bipolar about everything; we communicate well one minute, she criticizes me or tries to pick a fight the next. she arouses me with insults so i can fight back; but i dont, and she sufficates , i see it. she’s 40, in the eve of menopause, and has always been on her defense against anything except :
when she came to california, she stayed with my aunt, who has a husband, who basically, is a sex addict, he fucked her. she FELL IN LOVE. this has been going on for 8 years. i resently discovered them fucking in my room. :) yeah, she didnt have her defense on that one. she thought he would leave his family for her; his friends, his wife, his 2 year old daughter, his mother, EVERYONE for her. and HOW FUCKING DARE HER try to convince him to leave my 2 year old cousin, just HOW FUCKING DARE HER. ;(
since we moved out of my aunts house, because i did live there, and i love my family so so so much… my uncle in law, who took us to fancy places and restaurants just to get in my mom’s pants and some money …30,000 $$$ loans to help his business. okay, no big deal, but he started to completely cut himself out of her life. uummm, this triggers some MAJOR suffication and failed attempts at angering me. she wants so much attention from me when i simply dont want to be angry at her that she arouses me until i finally tell her i dont want to fight and then she tries to hit me. im 15. im a girl. and im educating myself to get the hell out of this place. dont get me wrong, my mom loves me and has done wonderful things for me such as getting me out of colombia. but consider me pippa lee- if youve seen the movie. (the mom) in pippa lee is bipolar, she has done nothing, she loves her daughter, but pippa leaves her because she is intoxicated with her crap. basically im pippa, without the guts.
anyway, recently its been horrible, her life seems duller by the day, my life is being affected, and dont tell me to go with my friends or stay away from her as much as possible, she RARELY lets me see them.
my uncles have gone on vacation to idaho. she is especially mad my uncle in law in going with his wife, daughter and mother.
she has told me they are not my family and to never talk to them .
I LOVE MY UNCLE not my uncle in law BUT MY UNCLE.
my uncle is 23 and amazing and i love him like a brother.
she is exiling me from seeing or talking to him.
is this right?
